The moment I saw my ex-boyfriend with his new girlfriend, I became jealous. Though, my new boyfriend was sitting right there, I wanted my ex. I had learned in my bible study for teens class that I needed to fill the void I felt with Jesus, but I didn’t know what that meant or how to do it. I filled my void with another boy who I didn’t even care for in the way he cared for me. As I sat there confused, I tried to make myself feel love for the boy I was dating just enough to make my ex jealous. To be honest, I think we were both a little jealous.
The funniest thing about my ex and I was that we were dating people that resembled us. He was dating a brown haired, green eyed girl, and I was dating a green eyed, redhead boy. It seemed that even though we were broke up, we still desired each other more than we knew. Deep down, we wanted each other back, but at that very point in time, we were not going to give each other the satisfaction of knowing that. We did not want to show weakness no matter the cost.
Several weeks later after I came home from my youth bible study, my ex was on the couch playing video games with my dad. We ended up flirting, playing footie, and falling for each other all over again. Oh how I missed him. Oh how I just wanted to jump on him and kiss him. We went to the store together, and I found out that he was single again. Lucky for me, I had just broken up with my boyfriend as well. Once we both figured this out, we were both floating in heaven.